IS PHONE PHOBIA ACTUALLY A THING?
That one call changed so much.
I get anxious and scared when my phone rings and the first line of thoughts that come to my head are
"Is it bad news?"
"What has happened?"
"It better not be something bad"
It's a very terrible thing to feel and I hope I get over it soon.
The way my heart races when my phone rings is dangerous for my mental health.
It has put so much pressure on me and I can see it affecting me.
I'm working on it. I'm really training my mind to be positive but it's not easy. The negative enegy I got under 1 minute of hearing of my mum's death is draining.
On my birthday, I really wanted to call her cause I was frustrated.
I actually called but she didn't answer, Why would she anyway?
What hurts me more is that I spoke to her the day before she died and she was so full of life so how???
Anytime I listen to that last call we had, it breaks my heart. But Will I stop listening to it? Lmao NO, NEVER cause that is all I have left of her irreplaceable voice & aura.
I never thought that Wednesday 4th March 2020 was going to be the last time I was going to hear her voice live.
If I did, I would have told her not to leave us because we LOVE her and we miss her.
Anytime my phone rings, it's just a tough reminder of the last conversation I had with her and the call that told me I had lost her.
It really hurts a lot but I'll be fine... hopefully
I am Vanessa Anagwu and this is my life🦋
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